From: Kendall Payne Date: 2015-11-16 2:57 AM To: Luana Payne; Subject:Re: This week
(… personal notes to family members)
This week was really good for me. On tuesday we went to Ladysmith to drop off my previous companion Elder Ngulube and picked up my final companion (Or executioner in mission terms) Elder Tshuma also from Zimbabwe. I also had the opportunity to see a man who i grew to love when i was serving in Ladysmith. He told me i have lost weight (which im not sure i believe) and how happy he was to see me again. I told him seeing him was like seeing my mom or dad. It really was almost to good haha.
After Getting Elder Tshuma we had a lengthy drive back to Madadeni, but as soon as his bags were dropped off we went to work. And we have continued to do the Lords work this whole week. At one point in the evening He mentioned to me “Elder Payne i have been around old missionaries, but not every one has finished as strong as you currently are. What is your secret?” I thought about it for a few seconds and then turned to D&C 84:33 which says “for whoso is faithful unto the obtaining these two priesthoods of which i have spoken, and the magnifying their calling, are sanctified by the spirit unto the renewing of their bodies.” I told him time and time again i have leaned upon that blessing especially now as my mission is coming to a close. If we magnify our calling, which is to do the work which is required of us and then do a little bit more, keep the commandments and exercise our priesthood in faith, we shall be blessed with a renewing of our body and receiving more strength. If we are to continue in our calling with faith and strength we need to follow the counsel given us by our leaders and do all that they are asking of us.
I have realized that if one can keep all the commandments of God and church leaders we shall be perfect! But the problem all humanity has is keeping all the commandments. Again perfection is something we are commanded to strive for, but it is not a gift any mortal can achieve until he is resurected. President Joseph F. Smith acknowledged the same but then added this, “There are those who you will find in life who are well Traveled on the path to being perfect.” So we must understand not everything can be achieved all at once, but to be able to do better every day of our lives.
I hope we can all achieve that wonderful goal of being a perfect being one day in the Presence of God.
Date: Mon, 9 Nov 2015 14:33:20 +0200
… (notes to family members)
So this week was the final one in the transfer and a few tears where shed as i realized that i am starting to say more goodbyes to people than introductions. My current companion Elder Ngulube is getting transferred and i am getting someone new who will be my final companion. I was a bit sad when i heard the news that My companion would be leaving even though it was expected. He had been in the area for six months so he was due for a transfer. As He and I were talking about our transfer together he said to me “Elder Payne you are a very strong old missionary. I wish i could finish off my mission the same way you do, Such as waking up at six thirty and doing all the other neccesary missionary labours that we should do.” I am glad that i was able to be an example to him and grateful as well that he was an example to me.
I really have nothing new to add this week though. The work remains the same and i continue to enjoy more and more what we do. I have been realizing as well the timing that some people need to accept the gospel more and more. Some individuals are ready for you and will accept and become baptised within a few weeks. Others may take months or years. But as member of Gods true church we are never to lose faith on those who are around us. It is part of always being faithful and waiting patiently for those souls to bring themselves unto christ. Because we only commit souls to enter into heaven, we dont force people to heaven. Otherwise nobody would be happy.
I am glad that i have a family who is strong in the gospel and for my personal testimony. I love you all
Also included are two photos sent on a different email, with what Elder Payne had to say about them.
On Mon, Nov 9, 2015 at 2:00 PM, Kendall Payne wrote:
Paintballing with the opposing zone!
Date: Mon, 9 Nov 2015 15:15:06 +0200
From: Kendall Payne Date: 2015-10-19 4:04 AM To: Luana Payne Subject: Re: Hello
So this week was eventful as always. We had our interviews with President Zackrison on wednesday which was great. I always love interviews with our president cause i love being able to tell someone else how much im enjoying the work and what sort of things im working on. Our conversation started off with him mentioning to me about how much i have progressed ever since i first walked into the field. Ill always remember what he told me my first interview which was ”Elder Payne, when i served my mission some of the hardest workers i ever saw came from growing up on a farm. So i expect you to work hard on you mission.” Right there and then i made the decision that i would work hard from that day and forever. President also mentioned to me this time that he has noticed how hard my companions and i have worked and it has been a sense of a little joy to him because in his words I have been the sort of missionary he could trust and also the Lord could trust.. I felt quite happy being able to see what he said was true. The lord has trusted me with alot including terms of areas and companions. One of my first desires has become to always do what the Lord has asked and do it willingly. This ties in to what i want to share today which is something about sacrifice.
In heaven the first law before anything else is obedience. If a servant is obedient to that which the Lord has asked of him he shall be blessed. If he is not he receives no such blessing. But to be obedient requires somethings from us. It requires us being willing to sacrifice for a commandment, because we have a hope that behind the sacrifice and the commandment comes a blessing. God always has been and always will be a god who notes sacrifices and will always bless us for making such sacrifices for him. One example is abraham who was willing to sacrifice his only son, just because the lord commanded him to do so. Now making the decision could not have been easy for him, but in the end it was made and in the end he was blessed and is still being blessed up to this day. Another example of sacrifice the Lord asks for is for Young men to serve missions. Now some young men choose not to serve because they are unwilling to sacrifice any time for what seems like at first glance something that just requires a load of hard work with no immediate blessings visible. But you should ask a young man who enjoyed serving his mission for the lord if the sacrifices he made for the Lord were worth it. It will be and will always be from the mouth of faithful returned missionaries that the sacrifices you make for mission are small to the blessings you receive after mission. It will always be this way as well. We put in so little effort considering all the blessing we reap..
Sacrifice isnt easy, But it is well worth it. Think to the time christ was in the garden of gethsemane. If he was willing only to atone for a few of mankinds many sins, Or if he chose not to sacrifice his life at all, then all of us, regardless of who we are, would never return to live in Gods presence. Our sacrifices our small as well, when considered against that of the early saints who left homes of comfort in europe, with many only to find a grave in america, not having reached zion. I would like to testify as well sacrifices are worth it, whether it is something big or small. If i had been unwilling to sacrifice my laziness early on in my mission i would not have become the hard working servant that stands before many people today. If i had been unwilling to serve a mission i never would have come to know the lord in the degree that i know him today.
So in short my week was great, because i was willing to sacrifice for my lord and do his holy work to which i have been called.
From: Kendall Payne Date: 2015-10-12 3:17 AM To: Luana Payne; Subject: Staying obedient
So this week was very hot. When i say this i am talking about weather coming up into the high 30 degree (Celsius) range (around 100 degrees Farenheit). But despite the extreme weather my companion and i did some old fashioned tracting work and found some success. Actually just getting into one house or meeting one person makes tracting worthwhile so we were met with success everyday which was pretty good. After a long week of being on our feet we closed yesterday being very tired. My companion said to me though “Elder Payne you have shocked me since we have been companion. Every morning you are up at six thirty. Every evening before you go to bed you read your scriptures and pray. Every day if we run out of things to do you are willing to tract.”
I was very complimented to say the least and i looked back on why i have been being obedient. The short of it is this- I love Heavenly Father, I love my Priesthood leaders who gave us mission rules and i love my Mission President all very deeply. Because of the love which i have for all these individuals it drives me to be better and to want to keep the rules.
This is the same reason that Christ did all that Heavenly Father had in store for him as well. A deep abiding love for him and what he can do for us. Its this same love that helps us keep commandments, even if we do not fully understand them. But also remember that when you keep a commandment, you receive the blessing that is attached to it. So even if you may not understand why it has been given us, keep the commandment and you will see blessings flow into your life.
I know God loves us so much that he wants to protect us and the way he does so is by giving us commandments. They bring such safety and peace into our lives.
Date: Mon, 5 Oct 2015 12:41:34 +0200
So this past week was great. I said goodbye to Kwamashu and elder frederick, got on the bus on tuesday and said hello to Madadeni and Elder Ngulube. My new companion is from Zimbabwe, he is about 4 1/2 months old and he is a powerful missionary. One thing i love about new missionaries is their desire to share the gospel. His fire has caught hold of me and we are doing the lords work the way he intended.
So im not going to go into the week so much, but i am going to talk about a lesson i learned this week. This weeks lesson was patience. Recently ive been wondering why i have been so unsettled with peoples concerns and also my own concerns. I told my companion and he said “Well Elder Payne you need to pray about yor problems. Tell the Lord what you have questions about.” So i did so, but immediately afterwards i told him that i felt better, but i still needed to know the answer. He shared with me this “Elder Payne, you need to be patient when you ask the Lord a question. He wont just give it to you like a weekly payment from your job. If you exercise impatience with the Lord you will wait a long time for your answer.” So being mildly rebuked by my loving companion i realized i was indeed being impatient with Our eternal father and that i had to repent and wait. I realized as well, while we are waiting for our answer, the Lord is building up our life for the moment when we can receive it and never forget. Waiting for an answer teaches you to treasure it. But receiving something as soon as you ask teaches you to be ungrateful, for while you wait you are also being humbled by the Lord. It is wisdom in God that he makes us wait for blessings as well for we shall only receive them when we truly need them.
I know God Lives. I bear testimony he answers prayers in his timing. Not ours. Not now. Not ever. Remember to be patient and you will receive all the gifts heavenly father has for you.